I was adrift on waves of feeling swirling circles about my mind wondering if I had that strength to decide it was your time.
Did I have the right to make this choice that would change our lives forever; did I have the will to sacrifice our precious time together?
Was I wrong in thinking of myself while you grew so frail and weak; was I selfish in my desperate need to have you here with me to keep?
Into your bright eyes I searched and found within your soul,
the echo of a far-seen wisdom the kind which only angels know.
You gently rocked my broken heart and with angelic calm
you lifted all the quilt I felt for wanting to hold on.
You showed me that the choice with which I felt so wrecked and torn lay upon a path God paved the day that you were born.
Somehow you made me understand the choice was never mine, it had been appointed long before, in another place and time.
So as I lay you down to sleep your eternal spirit shines
and our paths will cross again someday littlest angel of mine.

Terri Onorato